CSA Weeks #2 & #3

In a pre­vi­ous post, I wrote about our rea­sons for join­ing a CSA and how we were doing after the first week. Since then, we’ve received weeks two and three, and tomor­row we will pick up week four’s box.

Well, it turns out we did the best with our first box. Our sec­ond box was almost all greens (and LOTS of them). We ate the spinach and the romaine-like let­tuces. We did­n’t even make a dent in the bag of leaf let­tuce we received. How­ev­er, I’m pret­ty sure the rasp­ber­ries we got were eat­en as quick­ly as any that we’ve ever bought at the store. They were also enjoyed immense­ly. The radish­es were not though. No one in our fam­i­ly eats radish­es so we gave them to Jason’s par­ents so some­one would enjoy them.

Our third box was a lit­tle sur­pris­ing. I expect­ed that it would just get fuller and fuller and more and more var­ied. When I went to pick the box up last week, I had made arrange­ments with a friend to leave some if not most of the pro­duce with her because we would be leav­ing town for a few days. I opened the box, and I was sur­prised to see a bag of let­tuce, sum­mer savory, beets, and rasp­ber­ries. As I write it, it sounds like plen­ty, but it did­n’t even fill the box. We ate the rasp­ber­ries right off the bat again (as I’m sure we’ll do tomor­row when we get our next box), and we left the rest in the fridge while we were gone. Jason had a sal­ad last night, and I’m plan­ning to roast the beets for sup­per one night. I’m not quite sure what to do with the sum­mer savory though. I’m also not sure if we’ll eat the let­tuce. I thought I liked sal­ads, but at this point I am strug­gling a lit­tle to find enough vari­ety in them to keep me inter­est­ed with­out mak­ing a sig­nif­i­cant amount more work.

The more I think about the CSA, the more I real­ize that the prob­lem (if there is one) isn’t real­ly that we are get­ting too many greens. The issue is more that I am not doing as much meal plan­ning, prep, and cook­ing as I have in the past. Dur­ing this preg­nan­cy, I have had morn­ing sick­ness since I was 3 weeks preg­nant, and in addi­tion to the morn­ing sick­ness, noth­ing has tast­ed very good to me. If you add that to cook­ing in an apart­ment that does­n’t cool down very well, it equals more con­ve­nience food. Unfor­tu­nate­ly, sal­ads aren’t usu­al­ly the type of con­ve­nience food I’m talk­ing about. Usu­al­ly when it comes to sup­per time, I haven’t cleaned or cut the veg­gies. I am tired, and I can’t think of any­thing except the stan­dard sal­ad of let­tuce, veg­gie, some cheese maybe, and dress­ing. It’s good, but it also has its lim­its. I’m pret­ty sure I should prob­a­bly make some sort of goal about this. Maybe I should aim to clean the veg­gies with­in a cou­ple days of get­ting the box or doing my meal plan­ning on Wednes­day. Right now, I’m not quite sure I can think straight enough to make those sorts of goals, so as of now, my goal is to have goals for next week.


Love what is.

Wel­come to my new blog! This blog is called “Love What Is.” I hope that it becomes a life blog for me and helps me to remem­ber my desire to embrace my life in order to have the life I want as well as appre­ci­ate what I have instead of wish­ing for some­thing else. Whether it be in my career, my fam­i­ly, my liv­ing sit­u­a­tion, or any oth­er aspect of my life, I want to be embrac­ing my life instead of wait­ing for it to pass or wait­ing for the “good part” to start.

My pre­vi­ous blog was The Beau­ti­ful Let­down where I wrote pri­mar­i­ly about breast­feed­ing. After writ­ing there for a cou­ple years, I felt stuck. The blog was pri­mar­i­ly about my nurs­ing expe­ri­ences and my thoughts on nurs­ing my chil­dren. To me, it was pri­mar­i­ly a breast­feed­ing blog and as my kids were/are wean­ing, I felt as though I had less and less to say and share. Last year, I post­ed our fam­i­ly’s Christ­mas card, and then, I decid­ed to stop blog­ging there.

Since then, I have missed blog­ging. I have missed the writ­ing process, and I bet there have been at least 30 times when I thought “I should write about that.” When I start­ed The Beau­ti­ful Let­down, nurs­ing was a very large part of my life. I was the moth­er of a 15 month old who was nurs­ing 3 months into my next preg­nan­cy. That was fol­lowed by almost three years of tan­dem nurs­ing my boys. As it became less and less of the focus of my day and as my chil­dren nursed less, I had few­er anec­dotes to share. I thought less about nurs­ing even though I still val­ued it high­ly (and pos­si­bly even more high­ly than when I start­ed the blog!). But, for some rea­son it did­n’t feel right to move on to anoth­er sea­son in my life on that blog.

A cou­ple weeks ago, I was hav­ing a rough time accept­ing my 4 1/2 year old’s approach to and atti­tude about pot­ty train­ing (or pot­ty learn­ing as some call it), and I said some­thing on Twit­ter like “Does­n’t any­one have a mag­ic solu­tion to this pot­ty train­ing stuff?” One answer that I got back was from Sarah Par­ent. Her answer was, “Love what is. Trust.” It turns out that was the mag­ic solu­tion I need­ed. It was­n’t nec­es­sar­i­ly the answer to pot­ty train­ing my son nor was it the solu­tion to mov­ing from our cur­rent apart­ment to a house or did it solve any of my oth­er prob­lems or dilem­mas. It gave me a dif­fer­ent focus though. Instead of focus­ing on what was wrong or what I was hop­ing to change, I am try­ing to focus on what is and what I can enjoy about it or learn from it.

I’m hop­ing that I can be ful­ly myself in my blog­ging here and share my jour­ney to liv­ing a con­scious life and to lov­ing that life as it is.