Welcome to the July 2010 Carnival of Nursing in Public
This post was written for inclusion in the Carnival of Nursing in Public hosted by Dionna and Paige at NursingFreedom.org. All week, July 5-9, we will be featuring articles and posts about nursing in public (“NIP”). See the bottom of this post for more information.
When my older son, Kael, was born four and a half years ago, I knew I wanted to breastfeed him. I knew that it was best for him and for me, and I had some innate desire to do it. Honestly, I didn’t think once about nursing in public. I didn’t have a plan for how to handle it. I wasn’t concerned about it. I wasn’t confident either. It just never, not even once, crossed my mind.
When Kael was born four weeks early, I found that other issues were weighing more heavily on my mind. Most of my waking thoughts revolved around the fact that he was a sleepy baby with jaundice who couldn’t latch. During my days in the hospital, I had help (?) attempting to get him latched every 3 hours around the clock from the nurses on duty. Eventually, he latched but only with the help of a nipple shield. But, by that point, I felt like everyone in the hospital and maybe in the city had tried to help me breastfeed my son. It seemed as though nearly all of them had seen me attempting to breastfeed, so I figured at that point I was ready to feed him anywhere.
The second week I was home with Kael, my mom came to stay with us. She was SO supportive of breastfeeding. I’m not sure I can emphasize that enough. She kept telling me, “You’re the mom. You know best. Trust yourself.” So, thinking back, that is what I remember from her visit, but somehow by the end of the week when my dad arrived, I had the impression that I should be using a blanket to cover Kael while he was eating. I’m not sure what was said or if it was my mom that said it, but somewhere in that week, I ended up feeling like I should do what I could to cover myself while breastfeeding. Even in my own house!
Between feeling like there was something that should be hidden while breastfeeding, having a baby who struggled with latch, and using the nipple shield, I ended up avoiding breastfeeding in front of other people as much as I could for the first few months. However, it turned out that Kael was pretty cooperative with that. He was a very consistent eater. He ate about every 3 hours for 30-40 minutes. This made it easy for me to plan my outings, because as a mom of a new pre-term baby, I rarely went anywhere for longer than three hours. Also, I knew that if he was going to eat, it was going to take a while. Knowing this, I sometimes arrived late or left early to avoid having to breastfeed for that long time period in a potentially inconvenient place. As he grew, he nursed less and less. I don’t ever remember him asking to breastfeed in a store or restaurant as he grew.
Then came Asa.
Asa was a completely different nursling and completely different baby. He was born at 40 weeks and 3 days. He latched on pretty well, and he ate every hour or so for much of the first six months after he was born.
This was quite a shock to me. I assumed that Kael had been “normal” and that “normal” babies ate on a consistent and predictable schedule. I also had a 20 month old (Kael) who wasn’t crazy about being at home all day each day. That meant that I needed to breastfeed where others might see me. Gulp.
I bought myself some nursing tank tops, and I wore them under another shirt every day. I made plans, and I took both boys out. And, I breastfed in public. Anywhere and everywhere. It seemed like no matter how well I thought I planned things out, the first thing Asa needed when we got anywhere was milk. I breastfed in Subway, Applebee’s, the mall, the mall play area, the park, Sam’s Club, the splash park, the gas station, and everywhere else we went.
At first, I felt very awkward doing it. I was pretty sure most people around me were looking at me, talking about me, or at the very least thinking about me. Looking back, I’m pretty sure most of the times I was nursing no one else gave me a second thought, or maybe not even a first thought!
Over time, I felt less nervous and awkward while I was nursing. I stopped blushing, and it really became as much a part of our routine as nursing at home was. I’m sure I could claim that it was because I just did it more, and I got better at it. While I’m sure that was a part of it, I know there was at least one other major factor that really helped me feel comfortable feeding Asa wherever we were. My friends.
Not only did my friends breastfeed their children, they did it in public. They breastfed at the park, in the mall, at my house, at their houses, in stores, in restaurants, on the bike trail, and everywhere in between. They also had children who were older than Asa. I’m sure I had no idea at the time that seeing other moms nurse their babies while reading a book to their toddler at the library or seeing moms nurse their babies while sitting at a table in a restaurant had such a large part in my change in attitude about nursing my own children, but as I look back, I am confident that having such great role models as friends was so important for me and for Asa.
I have always heard other breastfeeding moms encourage people to nurse when their babies need to. At one time, I even felt like it was some sort of agenda. Now, I feel like I am more able to see it for what it is. It’s normal. It’s part of mothering a breastfed baby. It’s feeding and comforting. I’m due in October with baby number three, and I am not sure if this baby will be more like Kael or more like Asa, but I know that regardless of his nursing needs, I will be more prepared to meet them wherever we are.
Welcome to the Carnival of Nursing in Public
Please join us all week, July 5-9, as we celebrate and support breastfeeding mothers. And visit NursingFreedom.org any time to connect with other breastfeeding supporters, learn more about your legal right to nurse in public, and read (and contribute!) articles about breastfeeding and N.I.P.
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This post is just one of many being featured as part of the Carnival of Nursing in Public. Please visit our other writers each day of the Carnival. Click on the links below to see each day’s posts – new articles will be posted on the following days:
July 5 – Making Breastfeeding the Norm: Creating a Culture of Breastfeeding in a Hyper-Sexualized World
July 6 – Supporting Breastfeeding Mothers: the New, the Experienced, and the Mothers of More Than One Nursing Child
July 7 – Creating a Supportive Network: Your Stories and Celebrations of N.I.P.
July 8 – Breastfeeding: International and Religious Perspectives
July 9 – Your Legal Right to Nurse in Public, and How to Respond to Anyone Who Questions It