Two weeks ago I was trying to meet a goal of going to the gym 12 times in the month of February. To meet that goal, I went to the gym 7 out of the last 8 days of the month. I ended up not losing any weight, but I really liked getting there that often and feeling the difference in my body from doing those workouts. I did not like the guilt though. Even though my husband is awesome and my kids are pretty flexible considering how much time it took from my day (and theirs, too, on some days), I feel guilty. I have a house to clean, meals to make, kids to read to, babies to cuddle, meals to plan, laundry to wash, laundry to fold, laundry to put away, kids to put to bed, and many other things to do, too. Instead, I either put it off or handed the duties off to my husband to get the workouts done. He never once complained. In fact, he encouraged me to keep going and get the workouts done. He’s awesome by the way. 🙂
Yet, I feel guilt. I have 3 kids. My husband works full time plus does freelance work in the evenings. Is it really fair for me to take that much of our family’s time to exercise? Up until recently, I had been going to the gym twice a week in the mornings and putting the boys into their child care area. That worked really well until Kael and Asa started to get tired of it. So, we figured out a couple little things they could have or do in there to keep them interested and occupied. Now, Kael is sick and Asa is just getting over his cold. I won’t be going to the gym tomorrow morning.
So, I have a choice. I can skip going and end up with a marathon run of workouts at the end of the month. I can go tomorrow after Jason gets home from work. I can go tomorrow evening when the boys are going to bed. Or, I can go another day, but the time issues remain the same. Unfortunately this is a very busy time in my life, and I don’t have a lot of flexibility in my schedule.
It appears that I could moan and groan about it. Those of you reading this would probably give me some helpful suggestions and words of encouragement, and I appreciate that. But, I think the real solution is the same as what it was to my moaning a few weeks ago. Just suck it up and do it. Everybody has the same 24 hours in a day. Everyone has things that make them busy. Everyone feels guilty about doing or not doing something. In the end, we just have to do the best we can. So, there it is. I’m a bit of a whiner, but (hopefully) I’m also a doer.
I weighed myself again, and I didn’t gain or lose any weight last week. I have decided that I’m going to take a month off from the scale. I’m going to focus on water, fruit, vegetables, and regular exercise. At the beginning of April, I’ll hop back on the scale and see how things are going. Until then, I’m going to work on solidifying my lifestyle choices.