Lately I’ve been trying to figure out why I’m writing this blog. What do I want to share? What do I want out of it? I certainly don’t write for money or status. I haven’t shared this blog with many of my friends or family. I tend to write mostly personal posts about experiences I’ve had or things I enjoy.
I rarely (if ever) post controversial opinions. I do have them though. I also don’t post often sharing strong feelings. I was talking about this with my husband a while ago, and I told him I’m not sure I’m ready to have the internet judging my beliefs and opinions. Sure, my blog is a tiny drop in the “series of tubes” that make up the internet. On the other hand, all it takes is one google search to land here. I’m not sure that I want to put strong opinions out there and end up feeling like I need to defend what I share on my blog with people I don’t know and probably will never know.
Annie at PhD in Parenting wrote a post a couple weeks ago that caused me to question my decision to keep my thoughts on the more controversial (for lack of a better word) topics in my head as opposed to sharing them here or really anywhere else either. On the one hand, I don’t generally have a writing style that lends itself to advocacy of one issue or another. On the other hand, if I keep my opinions to myself, it tends to allow those who speak the loudest to seem like they are the majority.
When I was writing my breastfeeding blog, I rarely said anything that was controversial or a hot topic. I knew friends and family read my blog, and I was afraid of what they might think about something I said on the blog. When I was telling this to Jason, I realized two things. First, I realized that if I can’t share my opinions I obviously don’t believe in them very strongly. Second, I realized that if I can’t share my opinions this isn’t really *my* blog.
So, I’m taking a leap. It may not happen very often, but I’m going to try to open up and be more authentic about what I post here. I’m going to try to share things that really are important to me and things I know not every one agrees with. Wish me luck!